nw i m really lost... i duno wat to do... he seems to overpower my life... for the past few months it have been like tis i cant take it anymore.. i seems to be all alone... i nw duno wat to do... could anyone help me... guess no one noes what happen... crying painly nw... heart aching mind breaking... i duno wat i can do next... i got on one to tok to now... i m still alone the lonely me..

trust is all it take to hold on to the relation i had trust him... but him.. dun even trust me.. i try to forget n forgive everytime... but i guess everyone have the limit... maybe i m fated to be alone... he said tt he found his trust in himself n in me now... but i duno now.... it hurts even more... i duno... maybe i shouldnt have accepted him in the first place knowing my result would be affect n i will be too... but wat is done is done.. i duno abt my result now tmr is the day... hope it turns out good...

now i ask myself m i wrong to trust him... m i wrong to love him... there isnt right or wrong but i duno.. my everyday seems to be like reporting to army... wat i do nid to be reported... i duno.. i noe i dun like to sae much or tok much abt wat happen but i duno wat i doing....

lost myself... lost the me tt i myself noe... guess i had lost my closest friends too... i have 2 decisions nw... either to break with him or to continue... but not to be decided now... as i really lost my senses lost my mind... maybe after all i m too young to start a relationship... or i dun really noe how to handle my feelings well... no one in tis world own anyone... we ourself is belong to us... today maple down... i didnt tok much to him either... i start to wonder izzit tt our relationship continue when we r playing games... i duno... but after all it started out in a game... nv had i tot tt frm game will turn into real life... sometimes i wonder really this gonna work...

i duno... oz have been down so does ours?? maple now is under maintance... so is ours? i duno... mimi once sae tt she is very sad n have no one to tok to.. and she think tt i m better off as i have him... but do i? i duno... sad angry happy sorrow laughters... all this i had spend alone or with frens but nv to a guy... someone tt i can tok to well... i duno... maybe i have but now i m alone... no one to tok no one to ask no one to cry on no one to tell me wat to do... no one advice me... he said tt y in oz i can stay up so late to company him y not now i duno... seems like alot of things i duno... or maybe i dun wish to noe like wat he once said...

could tis really be the end of our relationship... maybe... maybe not... i duno...