Wednesday, September 15, 2004
~ Song of the day ~ That's wat friends are for by who i have no idea but wish the lyrics mean wat it sae...
Well... today go sch early me reach sch at ard 815am and fren already there so went to her den tok awhile while waiting for others and we try our presentation speech... den okay everyone is here den went to the lab... but not open so we were outside rehearsing our presentation... den okay... lecturer come den went in do last check up den present our ppt... well everything went on smoothly... me think i am not tat "tongue-tie" la... =x
den went home early... on the way home go buy roti prata to bring home eat... den after eaten my roti prata at home... well watch tv den try reformatting again lor... still tat stupid msg saying cannot set up cos virus scanning is running pls close it and try again... blah blah.. i so sian... den went to slp at ard 12 plus ba... den slp till 230 den watch tv den go pom so after tat come online lor.. well alot of ads keep poping up lor... cos i uninstalled the prevent ad pop out thingy... den surf the net.. went to bam's blog and read his entry which shock me lor...
i duno tat i hurt his feelings by replying him i am in lecture tat day where he sms me... but i not sure wats wrong anyway... cos i was really in lecture tat day and felt vibration of my hp den i take out and found out tat he actually called but i didnt noe cos i put it to slient mode... den i saw the sms den was blur lor... was wondering wat he meant by where am i and where is chiro lor.. den juz telling him tat i am in lecture den i felt his reply something not rite but i not so sure... cos in lecture so was paying attention ma... den got break den saw his sec or third reply... den really felt weird lor... den i was wondering okay if he saw chiro den well good lor... but really really not sure wats happening then weird weird replies... okay den i tot maybe he was doing sth else or moody so nv reply him...
den the next day which was ytd i think... he replied me tat he n ling saw chiro.. den i was like... erm... ytd u told me maybe u see wrongly now u sae tat u saw him ytd... okay... i duno wat happen in between so juz reply him lor.. again his msg so weird.. asking if i am happy with my present life... i was like not onli the present life lor... its like even if now i dun even noe chiro i am still contented and happy with my life... okay... really after getting to noe chiro my life sort of become more colorful in some sense.. really can tok to him but i oso dun wish to lose bam as my friend or anyone else... i am not acting weird or changing in any way... juz tat sometimes i am really blur with messages... den in some ways others may tot i've changed alot after sec sch but actually is i still myself... but juz rather quiet in msn...
even in sec sch i oso dun tok much in msn even i am there at the com... i juz dun noe why pple say i daoing them or watsoever... anyway... if u guys as my friends really think tat i changed alot becos i went to different poly or i changed becos i am in love.. i got nothing much to explain anything... was really hurt in some ways after seeing bam's entry in his blog... cos i treasure his and others friendship very much... every moment in sec sch motivate me to go on with my life in poly.. cos i do believe tat i could make so much good friends in sec sch i think i could do tat oso in poly.. but now really left me wondering my believe was wrong? sec sch memory always in my mind and i juz cant help thinking abt the days we were together.. but now i wonder have i changed or have our friendship being capsize??? heartbreaking if really capsize... now having a very sour feelings at heart and i am controlling my tears while typing this blog...
now rather stress as i am handling alot of things that i suppose it is more of adult problems... family alot of things happen alot of things cant be done though i noe its no use stress them but really wish can dun bother like others do... friendships, school works, projects, family problems and plus my own emotions... i duno how much i still can handle on... problems pilling itself into my life... sometimes i really wish i wasnt born into this world... but after thinking so long alot of happy moments also do brighten my life up but juz tat happy moments dun always last long but sad moments do...
Posted at 9/15/2004 4:33:52 pm by littlemint
